Anniversary of the Hard

My arms are filled with this precious baby.  All day everyday. I am thankful.

But today my arms were desperately missing the little one I never got to hold.

Honestly four kids is hard.  They are quite a bit of work and particularly with the youngest so young, but what I wouldn't give to be chasing a toddler in this mix.

Two years ago the grief began and today it still cuts deeply.

Trusting the Lord in his perfect plan even when it hurts and comes with so much sadness.